So it's monday. School started again today and I have to admit I am scared of this class. I am trying not to listen to what people say but it is really hard. I have decided to do my best with what I know and if I fail doing my best then that is the way it is and there is nothing to do but take it again. This is all really easy to say but not so easy to do. I am trying.

I did have a little over a week long break and that was really good. I am so blessed with so many great friends and family. The older I get the more amazing i realize they are. We laugh so much and i would trust them with my life.
The main thing on my mind recently is someone i am not on good terms with right now. I want to be but I have hurt them deeply and they are not talking to me. It sounds so childish and selfish but I want things to be right cause I feel absolutly destroyed when someone is angry with me and won't talk. I have tried to take care of my part and do everything I can to make it right but the letting go is the extremely difficult part. I do care for them and I hate this not knowing where they stand. I feel horrible and nothing seems to shake this feeling. I wish they would speak to me even if it is anger or hate.